This is a blog about my experience with a narcissistic psychopath. How I was manipulated and entrapped in a traumatic bond. In a series of blogs I will explore the dynamics of the “friendship”, that came knocking at my door at the most vulnerable time of my life. I will talk about the sexual abuse, emotional rape and financial exploitation that this so called friend managed to pull off with me in detail.

I seek to make other girls like me aware and vigilant of manipulative psychopaths who may seem to be another version of you, as damaged as you, and/or as familiar as your own reflection in the mirror, but later on turn cold, distant and unforgiving.

And I seek to expose all psychopath around you wearing their masks of sanity, sitting in their rooms alone, conning another broken girl, or learning and researching the dark arts of executing another soul rape, making girls go through the shame and fear of being flawed when the actual flaw is the psychopath’s.

I learned the hard way that life isn’t the fairytale I had thought it would be. Not everyone who calls you a friend has your best interest at heart. Worst thing I realized is that there are people out there with no empathy. These people may come from good homes, may pretend to be religious, maybe connected to you through a friend but trust in your own self matters more than anything else. Believe in yourself, your motto of life no matter how tempting an escape from yourself may sound like during troubling times. Always choose your self-respect and your trust in your own conscience.

I hope someone else doesn’t have to find it out the hard way the truth about the world we live in, or if they did, they can find comfort in the fact that they are not alone or if you, who is reading this, has been through this, and still haven’t figured it out, it wasn’t you, I truly wasn’t! The reason you feel so damaged is because it wasn’t you! But a mental illness forced on you: which may include, but is not limited to, Stockholm Syndrome, Narcissistic Abuse Syndrome, Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and many more. I will talk more about this in my blog series.

While I choose to keep my identity hidden. I will share certain facts about me, that may help the readers of the blog to identify with me.

I am a Pakistani, Muslim girl. I was raised in a good, religious, and well off family. I have completed my masters from abroad. Most importantly, while I may not cover myself with hijab, I hold my religious and family values very close to my heart.

For 28 years of my life, I never betrayed my values, until I befriended a narcissistic psychopath.

Thank you for visiting!

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